one min rants

2012-02-03T01:11:00.002+08:00

cards for the two birthday boys (:

ccs's:

basically it's made up of 25 cards with an alphabet from "chiangchersiang25bdaybook" on each card lol. and each alphabet has some random fact with it. ya, something like that. lol. i was using darling's camera so it came out much clearer. i love the close-up pictures! lol.

the stack of cards were not very thick initially. after adding all the alphabets it ballooned more than twice the inital size lol.

i love the green rings! :D ok actually i generally like green.

this is the second last page of the 'book', and is also one of the two of my favourite pages. lol. in case anyone doesn't know what it is (like ccs =.=), it's a black rabbit with moustache! :D moustacle because old already, black because he became a chao ta rabbit with 3 dragons spitting fire around him. lol.

and this is the other favourite page. lol. i like it because of the sentence in the bracket. hehe. it reflects a lot about our relationship (:

brother's:

it's quite a simple one... reflects brother's personality. and i don't want ccs to say i'm biased :P

he's really sweet (yes, i've been saying non-stop) lol. in fact he organized today's birthday celebration for ccs. and we ended up celebrating his as well :P

the number 9 was not random but by guesswork... lol. i added it there because i thought there'll be 9 people who will attend the gathering today (ended up only 8. but i'm close! lol). :X and i can't confirm the number because brother refuse to tell me because he knew i'll be trying to pull a fast one on him. lol. but i manage to "outwit" him heh!

hope the both of them had a good time today ((:

2012-01-25T22:50:00.001+08:00

First day of cny: visiting. Or more specifically, visiting grandma. Don’t you think she looks really adorable when she smiles? ((:

Second day of cny: everyone in the family is busy, except me. mom’s busy studying/busying herself with random household chores, darling’s “doing homework” (not sure how true that is though), ling busy getting hongbaos from everyone =.=, dad’s well, busy. Thankfully sam’s available to company me for the day (:

And we went Sentosa Flowers to squeeze with the crowd

For many of the 'attractions' you have to queue to take a picture with it. So there's like a queue with people manning it and maintaining order lol.

Pink ~~fluffy~~ flowery dragon

Oh for this one, visitors can pick up a huge brush (stick), touch its eye and it'll produce some sound. The first thing i thought of when people start pointing the brushes at it was the idiom 画蛇添足 (random thought).

The queue was kind of long so we tried our hand at a self-shot with the dragon. Not too bad uh? :P

Ok this looks way better in real life.

Birds and the bees (not in picture but amongst the surrounding flowers) *runs away*

Was hoping that the wings can flap (and chase the bees away)

Self-shot before we move on

Some nice auntie offered to help us take this picture (:

Too many people wanted a shot with this flower-cello(?) so we just snap and move on

And we reached the place they call the 'dino-land'

Resort to help after 2 failed self-shots

I think ju would love this... Although it's just a bed of it and not a field of it.

A lot of people were congesting the walkway while trying to snap a photo of this (so were we) lol.

The first photo we decided to queue for. Love the sand sculpture behind.

I think this area is called the 'sweet love' or something? This has one of the longest queue lol. Sam managed to snap a photo without any couples in it. :X

3D hearts hanging above

There wasn't much of a queue for this so we jumped at the chance for a quick photo together :D

Random shot at a cute little boy on our way to the beach.

But there was a human jam halfway because there were more flower exhibits (and bubbles and hanging jellyfishes). lol.

Nemo-on-the-opposite-side-of-the-path with moving fins!

This has to be my favourite flower exhibit. Crab with moving pincers!

After which we hung out awhile at the beach (and got sunburnt - me) before retrieving the car and attempting to go to the financial centre at my suggestion ...

... and got lost and wounded up at hortpark. There were some changes to the 'house' at hortpark since i last been here. The concept of the house becomes more of integrating gardening with modern living - basically what types of plants are suitable in every part of your hdb house. It's pretty interesting and i was quite impressed at some of their innovative ways.

Random shots inside the place.

they have this super cute and tiny shrimp inside their fish tank! sam and i were fascinated by it for quite awhile, trying to take a decent picture of it :P

i love the word hassle-free. this plant is good to go!

wall mounted aquarium. pretty cool and space saving.

at least this swing is still around (:

~3+ years back~

:
:
:

Random photos of spring cleaning

my primary school photo heh! found this in my cupboard drawer with my primary school report book. threw away the book and kept the photo :D

almost all of my soft toys out sun bathing

the ones i keep by my bed

the ones i intend to donate

or give away to my mom (though it's currently lying on my sister's bed =.=)

only keeping 2 out of this pile

i feel sad to part with them (especially the ones i got from cleveland) but i guess they'll find a better owner in a younger child's arms (:

felt especially good when i spring clean this year because i really dumped/donated/give away a whole lot of my past. i've been holding on to them for so goddamn long and i finally cleared everything that ought to be in the dustbin long ago and i feel dang good about it. like a burden off my shoulders. lol.

2012-01-20T17:51:00.001+08:00

约三年半了吧...

想, 就觉得很疲惫

何时是好?

2012-01-19T00:51:00.001+08:00

realized i haven't been taking much photos with the people in my life last year when i was attempting to change all the old photos at the sidebar to new ones. lol. probably because new friends become old friends, and old friends become older friends, and thus less likely to take photos together unless there's a special occasion.

to me, photos are the only thing that keeps my memory alive. even though they have been taken long time ago, many a time i can still point out the place the photo was taken, under what situation, what i was feeling then, what was the relationship like between me and the people in the photo then, and other details, provided that i'm the one taking the photo. no photo = no/little memory - my memory is pathetic like that. lol. so let me take more peektures of you please! :D

2012-01-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

visited ntu-nie today and bought these cute colored rubber stamps from their bookshop :D

i hate stamps that are all mono-colored (usually red) and it's quite rare to find colored ones with cute pictures. especially love the 'nice work' stamp for its color and the bee hehe.

i hope the kids do good work so i can use them! :X

2012-01-03T00:35:00.000+08:00

had an early celebration for dad's 60th birthday today because it's the only day everyone will be home lol. usual celebration with mee sua in the morning and cake at night. though people say 60 大寿 my family doesn't do big celebrations or anything. it's the same stuff every year, or 5 times a year in our case haha.

happy birthday to our forever young dad

family photo that is my laptop current background. (:

i finally completed watching this historical drama. 40 episodes in 2 days. whew. worth the watch for anyone who has the luxury of free time (:

oh yeah. happy 2012! :D

2011-12-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

early xmas card from one of the sweetest guy i ever know ((: even darling said that he's 'too sweet' when i showed her the card lolx~

dinner together after the last of this sem's exams with some of the econs people (:

and he added one of my favourite song lyrics in *awww* (not that he knows that it's my favourite lolx..) as i flip open the card,

and saw more pictures with the lyrics,

i felt blessed.. and really touched.. to the point that i nearly teared as i read what he wrote. i'm really really glad our paths crossed.. not just brother, but also jr, yq and the others. the 4/5 of us in particular gone through stuffs and much fun together (: hopefully we can still stay as close as we are now 5 years down the road.. ((:

2011-12-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

graduation is sort of like semi-retirement for me. you know the saying that one falls sick if left idling after retirement? yeah. something like that.

hospital-ed on tuesday and came home after 4 needle pokes. found to have low platelets. went for blood test again today and platelets just got lower. no idea why is that happening. so need to go for another blood test again to check the trend. meanwhile shall abstain from injuring myself (if that's possible) without locking myself up at home everyday.

cheers to my current pissed off and pathetic state. urgh.

2011-11-29T00:27:00.001+08:00

backdated post which i typed but forgot to publish lolx.

11.11.11

last day of school finally! last day of school but my last class was last night haha. still feels liberated though. maybe it's the passing-through to another stage in life.

i remembered my first economics class. it felt like it would be my last. i was called up to do some question on the first day of our tutorial and i did it wrongly. the lecturer cum tutor narrowed her eyes and i felt very small at that moment. since then, i felt that she dislike me and majoring in economics never cross my thought again. i was deliberating amongst sociology, history and psychology.

until ccs joined uni the following year and came to my faculty. he gave a very long 'lecture' and i was swayed. i took classes with him the following semester. i haven't been hardworking, and all i wanted to do was to go out and play. staying in pgp bore me to tears and it didn't help that he wanted to study. whenever i go over to his room, he would be sitting by the desk, studying. i would sulk, throw tandrum and insist on his company. he rarely give in to me. after many failed attempts, i started picking up my books. but by then i think it was close to end of semester. i remember the day before one of my exams, i still haven't finish studying and left the last few chapters untouched. he gave me a brief overall picture of the last few chapters and i got a decent grade for that mod.

since then i started studying.

very grateful to the people whom i met throughout my uni life. though for those who have graduated, i rarely see them anymore, but i still feel very glad that they have entered my life. like kw, ld, xx, lq, ting ting, etc.. it's a joy to learn together, and i remembered very vividly for basant's module, kw ld and i would meet every week to discuss the tutorials and run through the lecture notes. without them i would probably feel very lost taking the mod alone. plan to meet up with them after exams to xu4 xu4 jiu4.

and the friends i hang out with now, hr, jr, amanda, yq, ... we rarely study together ('cause everyone generally like to study by themselves lol) but we would have lunch/dinner together almost every day. though i would say it feels more competitive when i hang out with this group of friends 'cause everyone's striving for grades and it seems criminal to chillax once in awhile. lol. but everyone is reliant on each other as well. like now, i have 3 projects on hand and out of which, 1 of them is with hr and jr. seeing ccs and i busy with our other projects, they sort of gave us a lighter part to do, which i feel very thankful for their understanding and at the same time, guilty for the leeching. lol.

i will miss irritating jr, comforting hr, hanging out with amanda, bickering with yq and enjoying everyone's company.

---

28.11.11

the date i ended exams and thus unofficially graduated ((: the feeling is like "whoosh! finally!". but that lasted only awhile. lol. hours later i was contemplating what to do with life-after-graduation. i don't have aspirations or dreams or whatsoever. to me a job or a career is just something which pays my living expenses and job satisfaction meant deriving simple pleasures in whatever i end up doing. i would like to do many things but these many things are mainly "low-skilled" jobs (which apparently ccs find them so ridiculous he started giving me a 'lecture'. )): sigh).

ok job hunting officially begins. ~~tomorrow~~. ~~the day after~~. next week. :D

2011-10-25T01:20:00.000+08:00

got the remaining ppc photos from ccs so decided to share some moments lol.

jr and the amount of things he has to carry - he's not the only one. lol.

i got the same type of room as last year! :D which i barely used (like last year) lol. only the first night when fishy came over.. lol.

i forgot what was the pout about... either i got a room and bigger bed to myself while the 3 of them have to squeeze in a room, or that i picked pink as our team's lanyard color. lol.

our fourth teammate (which is not hr). how he looks like will be a secret haha!

2011-10-25T01:11:00.000+08:00

ccs's very cute niece's (ys) 1st month celebration. lolx. actually i don't know why must have 1st month celebration 'cause anyway babies can't eat all the nice food we eat, or 'celebrate' with us. lolx. ahh but anyway it's a good family gathering excuse :P

look so cute looking bewildered~ lolx.

lol. look so cute when it 'cries' too!

bleahs!

family photo (:

top L-R: younger bro's gf, younger bro, elder bro, elder bro's wife and cute baby!

bottom L-R: ccs's parents, elder bro's wife's parents and sister. the kid (yx) belongs to the sister. can't stop moving one! and that kid seem to have taken a liking towards ccs during the dinner lol. her actions very ke ai!

sleeping baby is apparently the best to disturb. the 2 brothers keep ka-chiao-ing the baby - play with her cheeks, her hands and her feet while she was asleep =.= i pity her lorhh. tsk.

the feet so cute and small right~ <3

2011-10-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

twitter is really quite useful (and very distracting). who knows U.S Open 9-ball 2011 actually has a live scoring live match update?! omg. so exciting to see the scores moving. lolx. favourite player this season jesse engel currently up his opponent 8-7. hope he wins! :DD

deadlines/stuff coming up:

21/10 - ccs's niece's 1st mth bday

23/10 - m&b project consolidation

27/10 - acc project meeting

27/10 - io presentation

27/10 - io assignment 3 due

30/10 - acc proj meeting to finalize and type out paper

will not be attending training

will not be enjoying the deepavali holiday

will not panic.

i hate school.

omg. he lost 10-11 ):

ok gotta sleep soon. muz keep pace!

2011-10-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

just set up a twitter account to follow the economist and my favourite economist. who knew you need to follow at least 5 people before you can continue?!... =.= had a hard time thinking of who/what to follow - that's how limited my interests are. lolx.

i wonder who else uses twitter apart from cow. hmms.

anyway have an analogy i really really feel like sharing. haha. it's pool-related and ccs-related: ccs is the pencil and i'm the sharpener; 'cause i make him (his playing) sharper :DDD ... ok not funny.

... actually that has 2 interpretations. 1) i'm the better player between us and whilst trying to match up to me, it has helped him hone his playing. lol! 2) i'm the lousier player between us and i've been missing so many shots and snooking him that it helps him hone his playing because he has to clear everything hahaha. i like to think that the first interpretation is truer :D

ok back to my inflation-targeting (or not) for india reading. argh.

2011-10-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

we both deserved better. and we got what we wished

happy that you're blissful now. (:

2011-10-10T22:48:00.001+08:00

grueling weekend just passed; barely survived it.

got back my accounting mid-term and labor assignment grades. satisfied. though can't say the same for my m&b mid-term. :/ after sleeping at 3-ish in bide to rush out my labor assignment on friday morning, lugging 10kg of stuff to changi village hotel for ppc in the evening, sleeping only at 1-ish after supper with fishy, and fellow night furies (lol), and a fruitless attempt to study m&b. woke up 5 hours later for another shot at studying (barely completed 5 pages :/), assembled for breakfast at 7-ish @.@, spent the whole day and in fact, whole night doing the case. slept only for 1 hour-ish on sunday morning. by then i've developed 2 ulcers which happily decided rest near my front teeth, making it hard to smile, talk or eat. after results were announced, yq ccs and i skipped the rest of the event and went home instead to study. head feels like exploding by then so i slept through the entire afternoon. by the time i got up to study it's close to 6-ish. forced myself to complete 2 chapters before hitting the sack again. woke up at 7am to attempt the tutorial questions. barely finished 1 tutorial in the end.

bad ending. lost the competition, lost my grades; honestly i'll be glad to just pass. 真是赔了夫人又折兵.

this year's tag looks much nicer than last year's! (: oh oh and i picked the lanyard color for our group :D

our barely-touched survivor kit which is currently resting in my room heh!

...with the exception of 4 millo packets, 2 uncle toby's and 1 sticky sweet gone

despite my ulcers, i'm still eating my favorite sweet from the survivor kit =X

okayy enough rest.

gotta start on resume for tomorrow and io assignment due coming thurs :/

2011-09-30T01:45:00.000+08:00

random

fluffy(s) - the olden days type of 'soft' (quite hard actually) toy which every part of the toy is self glued. and it produces sound when u shake it ;)

that's more than 1 month ago lol.

i secretly love the equation haha! oh. which reminds me.. i have accounting test coming sat :/

maybe i'm sua ku but i really find this unique (:

upcoming uphill tasks and events

1/10 accounting test

6/10 IO presentation (tentative)

7/10 labour assignment due

7-9/10 ppc again! (:

10/10 m&b midterms

13/10 IO assignment due

doesn't feel i'm graduating at all lolx.

2011-09-27T02:36:00.003+08:00

the bitterness, the envy, the regret.. i really don't like that now and then i question myself and feel shaken. like what ccs said. when your grades are not up to par, you don't get to choose; people and opportunities choose you. 'cause at the end of the day, grades speaks 'best' about your ability. it signals your capability to people. whether that capability is in that you are smart and hardworking, or that you're resourceful and have connections, it doesn't matter 'cause it's just different aspects of capability. it's fruitless to make up for the lost time now.

it really sucks to be left out of the loop. and not being able to do anything to salvage it makes it even worse.

i wish my sister won't follow my footsteps.

i wish i studied then. i wish i knew then what it means by 'to beg for a place'.

- - -

decided not to end off in a depressing note so i'm back here again to cheer myself up by listing the things i have done in place of keeping up academically.

1. i watched many dramas and animes which i can't remember their titles or their plot off-hand. but i guess this helps in that it can be a topic for conversation... right.

2. i watched a lot tv programmes then too. and kept up with daily papers. which i can't remember anything from those either.

3. played computer games and learnt to play lan. very time-consuming and only have short term rewards. long term... well i can name and play some of the games. other than that, i'm not aggressive or competitive enough, and don't savour this type of victory as much as others do, so zero long term rewards.

4. went out often then. hmmms. i think there's some negative correlation between friendship and studies. which now i conclude that in trying to keep balance, i failed both terribly in the end.

5. went for late-night suppers and drank more regularly then. weight and studies are also negatively correlated. lol.

6. nurture the relationship between ccs and i. we did a lot nonsense and went out often then. unlike me, ccs manages his studies and everything else perfectly well. lol. it's nice to recall fond memories of yesteryear especially now when we're stuck in school every day.

7. taught tuition. the effort put in and time spent outweigh the monetary gains from it but the satisfaction i get from helping kids who also make the effort is priceless. though ccs always say that i'm like doing charity work =.=

8. i joined pool, went for regular recreational trainings and subsequently team trainings. learnt more about the different formats and rules of the game, the players' ethics, and the sport itself. played better at the end of it and made some friends too... i guess when something becomes an interest, the perceived value exceeds its actual value tremendously.. lol. could have spent lesser time on this though.

9. volunteered. i was both happy and sad when i was with the kids and elderly. it's time well spent then. so no regrets on this (:

10. joined committees, organized events and led groups. supposedly to help improve my interpersonal skills leadership blah blah. not very sure about it though. won't deny it's fun but no breakthrough improvements in any aspects so... costs still outweighs benefits.

even with all 10 items add up together i still i don't know how i wasted my 2 years. lol. though i'm feeling better and ready to sleep le. thanks for the company. (:

2011-09-25T17:33:00.000+08:00

my new phone with camera 1.3 mega pixels haha! when everyone's keeping up with times, i seem to have gone backwards in time. old phone has crashed and kept auto on/off-ing itself. all my notes, reminders, saved messages etc are gone, as so are some of my contacts.. apparently this new phone chooses to save home numbers over mobile numbers of the same contact lol.so if you fall in those unfortunate few, you're also most likely to be the fortunate few whom i can remember your number off my head haha~

2011-08-27T01:30:00.001+08:00

somehow i can't sleep again. 'cause SUNIG is tomorrow. or today actually. lolx. last chance to not screw up..

3rd week is ending and i am feeling rather shaky/panicky on my tortoise progress on work. >.<

oh and we're joining public policy challenge again. this time without brother but with yu qiang. guess brother wants to focus more on getting ready for his thesis (very ahead of the game as usual).

no real progress on job applications yet either. so don't ask me anything about applying for jobs least i get even more panicky keas :/

summary of mood: very panicky about my ever-accumulating things-to-do

ok i really should get to sleep already. nights.

2011-08-22T01:51:00.000+08:00

school's entering 3rd week and i haven't got much done yet. i shall not panic and i shall be chill about it.

been cooking occasionally for the past 2 weeks and i'm glad to say i've gone beyond maggie mee and campbell soups, but apparently is still not up to ccs's taste since he calls my food hospital food. =.= which is according to him, bland. but to me it's call healthy. and he still prefers to buy pre-packed food. blah.

recently there's a big whooha over some lost pair of jeans at rvr. lost items are usually classified under lost & found and what the hall office people usually do is that they'll circulate emails to all residents regarding the lost item and then if there's no news, that's it. end of story. but so happen this guy who lost his pair of jeans got so worked up that he started spamming emails threatening and name-calling the person who 'stolen' his jeans. (i'm not even sure if it got stolen or he misplaced it accidentally...) the contents of the email was quite insulting and as a female reading those emails he sent, i was really offended. and someone got irritated and finally sent the hall office people an email complaining about that guy (thankfully).

and that's not the only irritating email i got recently. my accounting class has this idiot lecturer as well. our class have to do tutorial questions and readings from a textbook which cost 40+ and 20+ online. problem is there's limited supply online. the usual alternative is to head for the rbr section (basically a free to loan for 2 hours section) and photocopy the questions. that idiot of a lecturer didn't even place the book on rbr section; he left it on the normal shelf instead. which resulted in like zillion of holds for that single book. i got fed up and emailed the lecturer, requesting 1.the book to be on the rbr shelf 2. tell us the corresponding questions on the next edition of the book (which was already in rbr shelf) 3. purchase another copy of the book (which i thought was a ridiculous idea since the next edition is already out in the market but suggested it nevertheless). and his reply was classic: "i think you should buy the book right?" =,=" 1. i will NEVER purchase a book which has the next edition out in the market already. there's no resell value in it. i'm sure all econs students will agree it's a worthless investment. 2. i think it's really insensitive for him to reply in that manner knowing that there are indeed students out there who are not able to afford textbooks (which i felt was one of the reason for an rbr section). and his reply made me resolved to photocopy the entire textbook regardless of any consequences (rebellious streak). i was really mad and intending to bring it up to higher authorities. but few days later i cooled down and decided that getting into his bad books might reduce my chances for an A for that module. i'm really loser man. lol. when i happen to check for the book again, i realized the book was quietly placed into rbr already. lol.

looking forward to sunig (and the end of it) :D

2011-08-16T12:23:00.001+08:00

nothing much to update with my life except that

1. my laptop is in the process of repair now. have lived without it for close to 3 weeks already and the feeling really sucks.

2. i'm taking a module where undergraduates are the least educated people there.

3. i think i need to chill when it comes to studying. last sem with a stable cap (defined as can't go up, can only go down) i should really chill. chill.
4. just went ocbc treetop walk over the weekend. i'll never go again.

5. sunig's next weekend i.e. during polling day. been busy ~~playing pool~~ training.

6. graduating coming december. don't remind me i need to get a job asap.

7. i need to move on with life dammit.

2011-08-03T00:25:00.000+08:00

tadah! my new room. lolx. after working for asg at ntu i realize how horrifying a hostel room can be. so after officially shifting in yesterday, we spent some time disinfecting the room and cleaning the blinds, floor, fan etc. blinds and fan done by ccs though. i just sat around and snooze haha. in all honestly the whole place looks really like a prison. and our rooms are like prison cells. unlike pgp, the different levels don't have grills to separate male and female levels. which can be quite scary i think? especially if you're zoning in the morning with lion's mane, or possibly, walking around half naked or only wrapped with a towel or something. but i guess it's a more close-knitted group here.. since (likely) half of those here are athletes (and the other half is chinese); there bound to be sportsmates (or chinese from the same province) who applied for the same residence together.

i love how close i am to the pool (water). unfortunately the other pool (table)'s training is at the other end of the island. blah.

if anybody free can come and visit me. lol. i'll be a dang lonely girl here ): no fellow sportsmate staying in rvr. sads. lol.

oh and i got this accounting module i wanted since goodness-knows-when! (for 1.2k points though @.@) NOW i'm really looking forward to school yeah! :D

2011-07-24T14:37:00.000+08:00

school's starting soon and i'm moving in to Ridge View Residence soon too. 1st of august in fact. coming sem will be my last of my last in NUS. i'm supposed to be excited and looking forward to spend the last of my sem in school together with friends who haven't graduate too. at least i thought i would be few months back. but somehow i'm dreading school already. i dreading having to bid all over again, dreading to study weird modules since i've not much choices left when it comes to modules. And when i opened one of my module course on our e-learning page, i really really don't want to take a module which has '3 written assignments worth 10% each, a literature review presentation worth 20% and final exam 50%' alone. I hate alone. I really dread it. I don't want to go back to school ):

this is an unproductive whiny low self-esteem lack of discipline post. blah. ):

2011-07-18T01:08:00.000+08:00

this is a random post.

stuff cow bought from taiwan. (:

meaningful. lol. it spells what we are. (in a way) long-time happy-to-be friends friends. lolx~

very very sinful but absolutely <3s! i think i can eat 3 at one go haha.

tadah! decor for my house toilet haha. kop from ASG there. my mom was like saying the only male in the household is my dad so... female power haha.

letter from fishy <3

true-blue snail mail. lol. i enjoy receiving and sending snail mails 'cause it's a load more personal touch into it. decorations can be part of it but i think the main thing i like about it is seeing the other person's handwriting. lol.

and today we went picnicking under fishy's birthday command. lolx~ bbie and i settle the food, drinks, utensils, mat, umbrella while fishy made sandwich and sam brought kite. lol. we all mega failed at flying the kite. lolx. hours into attempting to get the kite 2 metres off the ground, we saw this old man trying to fly this dang huge kite. and he got it off and up into the air within minutes. lol. we seriously mega fail.

2 weeks later we'll go hiking at macritchie! haha. hopefully i'll finally get to walk the ocbc treetop trail. been wanting to try it for eons. lol.

2011-07-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

work@ntu:

= free lodging! shared the room with the other female temp ops mgr. overall virgin room-sharing experience: good if both lifestyles are alike. for example, we both dislike sleeping with air con and fan. so we completely agree on opening the window when sleeping. would have preferred someone even more similar to me though. haha.

'my side' of the room (: very empty at the beginning, and very messy at the end. lol.

there was one day which one of our supervisor was giving out wristlet balloons. i took 2 - pink for roomie and orange for self. lol. oh and that's my tag. it's something we need to wear day in day out for security reasons.

'newspaper' publication for the games. or what we secretly call the 'sian' times. honestly to me it's a waste of paper.

decorations for the entrance of the 'village'; a nicer term for accommodation.

some of the essays written by foreigners studying in singapore. the essay on the left was really touching. :'(

i thought this was really cute. wanted to take a picture with this but somehow didn't get the chance to. anyway it'll be quite weird since i'm working there. lol.

one of the signages put up.. unfortunately at a very weird place; it was in front of some female toilet and hardly anyone use that walkway...

few days into staying there i developed a series of sore throat/slight fever/headache/heavy head/cold. yup. and so that's eno above... nicely labelled by yours truly ('cause i accidentally tore off the entire label :/)

oh and we got ice cream treat halfway through. that didn't help my cold/flu/fever/headache/sore throat blah blah at all. need to emphasize: i prefer the ones with loads of nuts. lol.

can u see our ice cream container at the corner? it's filled with ice creams! :D

our 'arrival/departure' chart. it's a huge chunk of mess.

last of the 'sian' times. they have it both on print and online. why waste paper?? when obviously less than half of the people staying in the village can read/speak english =,=

that's our 'movement' chart. nice mix of colors hors? :D

oh and this is the top sam and fishy bought for me. it was another one previously but i went to the store to exchange away original top.

can u see the balloon ringlet?? so cute right! absolutely <3 it. lol.

i gave it to ccs as a proposal ring HAHA.

on the day which the athletes and officials were checking out, thank-you gifts were given and this is one of them from some thailand official. impractical but gorgeous (:

from what i understand, some of the athletes in those team-based sports only saw each other (aka their fellow teammates) few weeks/days prior to this event, much less ever trained together before. the objective of this event is to forge closer ties and understanding amongst youths in ASEAN countries through competitions, cultural education programmes and learning journeys. my definition of success for this event is that for youths of the same country forge closer ties amongst themselves. many came from different states, are probably of different 'class' and social groups. they may not even have a complete common language. for example, those from private schools are better in english; those from public schools may not even have half of that ability. how to bond amongst countries when within country it's already so split-up?

i'm dozing off le. another post soon.

2011-07-08T12:45:00.000+08:00

completely speechless and pissed off.

2011-06-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

Starting tomorrow for 10 days, i'll be staying in NTU's hostel! :DD absolutely can't wait! heex. it's 10 full days of work, a lot of work, and running around but it's exciting (: i never had twin sharing with someone i'm not very close with before and tomorrow would be my 1st. i think i'm pretty easy to live with: i'm not particular about noise, dirt, brightness, tidiness... lol. plus i never seen ntu hall before~ (suaku) and that's 'cause i didn't even attend their open house or pop by my friend's room when they were staying.. Ok i'm yakking again.

Anyway, just a random picture of the route i always walk from klassic to the nearest bus stop on the other side of the road. it's a dang long distance and i can't imagine i actually across this whole stretch 1001 times already. i've been wanting to walk the back alley aka 5-foot way according to ccs aka the road in the middle of the picture. Random haha.

shall pack my tomorrow and have an early night instead. <3 nights!

2011-06-27T03:34:00.005+08:00

i'm a very very loved and lucky girl

the first time in public. i was giddy and breaking out in cold sweat and goodness-knows-what in between. can only imagine how embarrassing it is. :/ horrible public behaviour. and feeling guilty at the end when i'm more conscious after fitting bits and pieces togther. i've caused a lot of inconveniences in the process :/ at the same time, i'm really thankful to have cow there and then, when i'm down and out literally. and to have ccs who ~~always scold me~~ came down to find me ~~and scold me~~.

and also, for hr, jr and ccs to celebrate my 18th (ehem) birthday with me on my birthday itself. no fancy restaurants or anything. just a simple dinner together at one of my favourite food place at far east plaza and then swensen's for deserts. (: photos all with hr as usual. lol. i only have picture of jr and a never-seen-before-shirt on him. my birthday coincided with our 1st day of work and we were told to wear polo tees. jr un-obligingly wore it for the 1st day and went back to wearing his usual checkered shirt the following day.

here's jr and his polo tee. and jr's trying to doge the camera very unsuccessfully lol.

i'm sure jr's pouting in this picture. haha!

the pretty card hr made (: we had a good laugh over jr's sotong-ish message on the card. lol~

ccs's present for me. i suppose it's to tell me excuses for tardiness like 'hp no battery' won't work now that i have a watch. lol~ <3 it loads.

also received wy's card and cute gifts that day. it came as a surprise 'cause i just got to really know her better recently through work. before that we were more of friend's friend type. very amazed by her seal and wax. it doesn't look very good here 'cause i sort of broke it very uglily; more like tore the letter and the bag open. :/

haw ling's presents for me... i was particularly puzzled by the joke book. lolx. shall go memorize some jokes and disturb her with it =X and it's quite funny that it's not long ago that i just cut my hair and she bought me a hair styler. need to grow back some hair before can i experiment with the stuff. lol. shared the masks with my sis and ccs. hope she doesn't mind.. >.<

sweet card from rae, ju, jaime, irene, m2 and dan2. at this time jaime, irene m2 and dan2 are somewhere in m'sia enjoying their trip.. can't wait to mj with them when they're back :DD

tiramisu cake and the sims's medieval collector's edition from darling. 1st time i have a bday cake solely consumed by self. there wasn't any cake cutting or photo taking or happy birthday song on my bday itself actually.. 'cause i think my dad sort of forgotten about it.. oh wells. mom sent well-wishes from gz and darling and ling remembered. :D

sims medieval.. it's more of darling's type of game :P i suspect she bought it for me for her to play haha! she's happily playing it right now in fact lol.

cow's souvenir from malacca! owl and cow. lol. no prizes for correct guess of who's who. put it up at my fridge already. i got this feeling mom will gleefully proclaim it hers and use it to clip her notes and read while working in the kitchen.

bbie's bday present for each of us she bought from her work trip. that donut thing looks delicious eh? though it's an unedible lip gloss. the irony. lolx. i intend to use them before they rot and spoil like the rest of my mostly untouched products. please tell me i smell nice(r) k! lolx~

and a blazer and a sparrows-aplenty top from fishy and sam which i shall not post any photo of 'cause i realize they reveal my very messy room.

thanks for all the wishes, the cards, the presents, the love and most importantly, the friendship and company for the past 1 year and hopefully for the many years to come.. (:

my wish this year is to have a miracle. there's a lot miracles i've been wishing for but right now there's only 1 i really want at this point in time.. have faith it will..

2011-06-21T00:09:00.001+08:00

it's the fruit of good karma haha. looks like my goals for this holiday will be more or less fulfilled soon (:

anyway, i realized just today that i lost my pink hairclip somewhere at klassic! ): someone must have thrown it away unknowingly. sadded. 90 cents gone at such a high depreciation rate.

-

oh and happy birthday to self.

2011-06-17T00:31:00.004+08:00

friend. competition. opportunity. though i did hesitate, but in the end, i'm still me thank god.

-

i know i haven't been spending quality time and having heart-to-heart talks with friends when even one of my longest friend said that she realize she don't know a lot about me. ):

either i "too difficult to understand" or that my life's too boring.

i think my life's too boring. let me win this week's mindyourbody contest please! :D

2011-06-15T23:47:00.001+08:00

guilty of not being a good friend.

2011-06-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

darling's new toy (:

she took eons to consider before finally getting it. initially when she asked me for camera recommendations i thought she would splurge on impulse. quite glad that she did think through and work within her budget.

relating it to wishes in general: when i say i wish for something, i always just wish and wish and wish. without any genuine effort on my part. like wishing for good health. i wished i'll stay healthy blah blah and yet, i stayed up late almost every night, skipped meals, never exercise, and the list goes on. are u also guilty of wishes that stayed as wishes too?

2011-06-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

saw 2 mushrooms while on my way to lunch. tried googling for their type/name. realized that there isn't a "mushroom classification" in singapore. lol. they're probably like the forgotten bunch of our biodiversity. too little are documented on them. lol.

pretty aye?

2011-06-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

he came in, into the same cabin. same cabin but seated diagonally across, on the other set of seats. i turned away, hoping that he didn't see me. mental counted his stops. nope. not stopping with me. "serangoon" the speaker announced. quickly got off my seats, thinking it'll be the last i'll see of him. sneak peak at him. he, too, got off his seat. mental counted my nearest escape route. as i rode up the escalator, he too rode up the escalator on his side. he head towards circle line, i head towards the exit.

it's like seeing and not seeing in the sea of people. that's fate.

2011-06-06T11:03:00.000+08:00

a thing of the past. some i know for practically half my life, some a few days, some initally close now distant, some close, some distant, some left, 1 overseas (carrots). lolx~

i miss taking neoprints. though i find it ex, but take it with me again someone? (:

2011-06-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

read the papers today, and lo and behold, a (last) ditch to decrease divorce rates: 101 survival tip for a long(er) lasting marriage - marriage preparation programmes. well... decreasing divorce rates = longer marriages = higher likelihood to have children = increase fertility rate. lol. it's like, if you want to learn how to fish, no problem! pick up that 101 fishing book and u're off to a good start. if you want to learn how to snag a job, no problem! attend a prep class and u're off to a good start. and also 101 on marriage. maybe next time there'll be a full 101 on how to lead your life? we're close to that already - we've practically all the parts covered. job hunting? covered. diet? covered. marriage? covered.

it's not the 1st time i've heard about it. but it certainly won't be the last time in papers. and for those who are interested (: http://www.marriagecentral.sg/

2011-05-30T07:59:00.001+08:00

hais. my results sucks. though thankfully i passed fin (the F for mid terms really gave me a hell of a shock) and i didn't do as bad as i thought i would for micro.. but it still sucks. hais.

and i dislike ccs for doing better than me this semester! rawrs!

2011-05-29T01:16:00.000+08:00

saw this on a friend's blog..

i wonder where does "hate" come in... hmms..

2011-05-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

what i've been doing for the past 2 days... slogging hard for pebbles. lolx. met new people and made some new friends albeit the short time frame but it wasn't a really good experience 'cause 1) the seniors sucks big time. they contradict each other in what should be done and caused a lot of confusion, and they are mostly impatient and bossy people. i conclude that none of them know the exact procedures nor have much rapport with each other. they would complain to their supervisors/heads about the other serniors. 2) we got blamed for things we don't know because we're new. openly and loudly, in the locker/changing room, no less. felt really indignant about it. if we can learn everything they learnt in their many years of experience there in 2 days, we can easily replace them then. after 2 days i came out of it as a more bitter person.

in their uniform lolx. took on the last day of my work, right before i officially ended work. lolx.

one more day to release of exams result. time flies manx...

2011-05-22T22:14:00.002+08:00

finally went pinnacle today (: i think visiting pinnacle@duxton was part of my holiday to-do list since 2 sems back. lolx. but we've been putting it off 'cause ccs didn't want to go unless there's car. tsk. we still took bus there today though (:

shall disgress a little. perhaps it's weird for the residents to hear that people are excited about visiting their HDB blocks. i've seen some residents commenting on forums 2 sems back; that they don't understand what's so fascinating that people want to come all the way with cameras in arm, they find it irritating etc. but i think they should be proud of it. because pinnacle is aptly named. it's truly the pinnacle of public housing.

anyway. we went chinatown in search for my wan ton mee i ate 3 years back. only had a vague memory of the stall. ): end up we settled for random bakut teh instead. went temple to pray and then walked to pinnacle le.

can spot ccs? :D lolx

it's amazing how public housing can look so beautiful. lolx.

oh random shot. just thought that the route to pinnacle doesn't feels like part of singapore. we even saw a grave right smack at the back of a house. amazing eh?

one of the world's busiest ports at 6.01pm LOL.

see the temple?? that's the distance we walked. lolx.

ooo lounging by the pseudo pool.. lolx~

ccs and his attempt to give the se4mi1mi1 eyes. =X

<3 the sky.. red sky at night = rain tomorrow morning? lolx.

ccs took this photo. beautiful (:

port's hard at work at night too..

doesn't ccs's 'pose' reminds u what a girl usually poses?

<33 this photo truckloads..

for the 1st time in a long time we're going out and we're not 1) playing pool 2) going school 3) watching movie 4) window shopping 5) playing mahjong 6) tagging with friends 7) walking around aimlessly. haha!

2011-05-21T15:53:00.000+08:00

the last time i had short hair

short hair now lolx. :D

2011-05-12T00:54:00.001+08:00

i'm running on hyperbolic discounting straight after my exams. pool-ed straight after exams non-stop sims3 till 5am and dragged myself to bed after dozing off in front of my comp. woke up (late) to meet hr jr and ccs for thor (Terribly HORrible movie)...

ok that was what i last typed before i went to meet cow for breakfast ermm 5 days back? haha. was too lazy to complete the post after that breakfast =X

oh yeah i remember now.. i wanted to do a post on the general election but kept forgetting. now the hype's kinda died down, my enthusiasm kinda died down as well. haha.

anyway i picking up sign language again. so anyone who wants to practice with me do let me know (: and recently i'm slightly more active on facebook, in terms of playing some game called cityville. lol. because of that, i've been logging in more frequently and everytime i log in, i'm annoyed by how people "use facebook" based on the news feed i'm getting.

For example, Ms X and Mr Y are together. But somehow they don't seem to communicate offline and will resort to tagging each other on walls with statements i'm sure can be said over sms/skype/msn/whatsapp whatsoever, clogging up my news feed with their posts. Thankfully, they're not mushy statements. One similar example is, "@MrY this week will be good (:" well... once or twice is fine............... not permanently. arghhh max. the whole world don't need a daily dose of your conversations with each other thank you.

ok i'm just particularly annoyed by that one actually.

2011-04-25T00:41:00.000+08:00

the moment i ended my financial paper, it felt like i've ended my exams LOL. the most worrying paper is finally over and not that i have any time to take a breather but i still did. by reading some manga and slacking for that night. can't wait for exams to be over.

but after this sem, some of my friends will leave again. it's really an emotional roller coaster for me when they leave. back in year 3 when i saw some leaving to join the workforce, i felt really left behind. seeing them happy with the new chapter of their life, with new friends/colleagues and a new environment. it's like they've grown up and i'm still stuck in preteens or something. and now. those who are in year 4 are all leaving to join the workforce already and i'm still stuck in school with a semester more to go. same feeling again but now with additional worrying nag that i can't find a job when i graduate; the top worry for all school-leavers. i am sure of where i want to be and what i want to do. i just hope that it's an illusion that i'm chasing.

pay for my own incompetence and just suck it up. argh.

this song by yiruma is really really nice ((: my favorite amongst all his songs. he wrote this song for his wife on their wedding day which is on May 27 and hence the title. really sweet. (:

2011-04-14T12:15:00.001+08:00

presentations over and report finally submitted yesterday *phew* indulged in some tv masterchef shows and sleeping-in after that. i think we all deserve it for working hard (:

now... 9 more days to start of exams. jia you everyone! hwaiting! haha. (:

2011-04-04T17:02:00.001+08:00

i'm amazed at myself. despite project deadlines and exams looming around the corner, i actually spent a night watching the whole of masterchef season 1 recomended by amanda/ccs. utterly guilt-filled the next day. )): for those who don't know what masterchef is, it's basically a cooking competition in which participants are tested on their ability to cook - cooking under pressure and time limit, cooking for tons of people, taking care of details, knowing your ingredients and mix etc. quite refreshing. and tons better than singing competitions 'cause got mouth-watering food to see ((:

anyway, like my new blog skin? ((:

2011-04-01T23:57:00.002+08:00

making a mountain out of a molehill probably just because we're the stick that broke the camel's back. it's plain ridiculous. even more so when thinking for the convenience of a person for the person actually becomes "i will jolly well know if you all were (doing/thinking so)..." and actually saying something along the lines of "i'll sit and wait at this bus stop (until you come)".

yes, we were in a way in the wrong for not informing you earlier. but i believe it doesn't warrant a full fleged argument in which you need to yell at the people who really care about you (though maybe not in the way you want) and say ugly things (like that sentence mentioned above). it's gets even more ridiculous that you dictate a person's movement by such threat (like that sentence mentioned above).

maybe it's april's fool. i just got the worst prank in my life.

2011-03-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

earth hour yesterday was spent with samuel and jastin at orchard watching jastin's friend's band perform. and lighting up some candles to celebrate earth hour. honestly i never knew what's with candles and earth hour which strikes me as more of an awareness gimmick than anything else. well but awareness better than nothing right.

before that we went out to Brotzeit for spicy potato wedges, sausage platter and pork knuckles. it's basically a bar/restaurant serving german dishes. not too bad though a tad pricey for the sausage platter which is not worth it's $32.50++ of 8 pieces of undistinguishable (by taste) sausages. i can only identify 2 of them as the spicy sausages. i particularly like their sourish cold potatoes chunks which is part of their pork knuckles dish. wedges is delicious, as like samuel said, you can't go wrong with wedges. lol.

and we went bar stop for some beer. i've never been to barstop and it has to be the ulu-est and most concealed bar i've seen. the whole while we were walking towards it shows no hint of any bar in the area and poof it just suddenly appeared in a tiny corner hidden by some plants. i would probably walk past it if i were to go there myself. lol. hmmms. i like the vibe of the place. nice chillout place that has a good live band that's not too loud. lol. i always have to shout across the table at some pubs which irritates me a lot. we each ordered a drink and they shared a creme brule. recommended place for good chatting session at night over light meals. shall go there another time. (:

2011-03-26T14:28:00.002+08:00

third year together ((:

my piggy squeezed out of its life lol

my main present for him

my side present for him (ok the main and side present thing is really lame.. but i was hoping that we would spend lesser on celebrations 'cause i don't want us to overspend. so i set a budget of $10 (or was it $15?) for presents. but ccs said that he cannot make it 'cause his present is not exactly a 'present' so we set it as side present instead and we (i) decided that we should spend less than $150 for any future celebrations.)

his main present for me - festive hotel stay. lol. it wasn't his initial plan but after knowing that i've bought uss tickets he changed his mind and booked a night there. lol.

super family-oriented place. view down from balcony

got bed for the kids some more. so cute right! (:

which would be my bed for the night. :DD

cute pillows and blanket!

the sofa bed. we were telling hr and jr about the stay and it's many sleeping options and hr suggested that we 4 should book a night together and stay over together ((:

ccs's amazed by this glowing remote control. lol.

personalized screen. the tv is a radio cum tv cum message board. dang cool (: <3 their selection of channels

lol i like their names. =X

view from balcony

after resting awhile we decided to explore the hotel. not much facilities (only a gym and pools/jacuzzi and some eateries and hairdresser and spa).

kfc for dinner! (: yums.

we wanted to go up 'cause ccs never been up there before but need to pay so we decided to give it a miss until the next time we come again and take it as part of a package or something.. lol.

super tired after dinner so we went back and rest awhile before coming out again at 9pm to watch the crane dance show. we were late for the show though. =X ccs in his weird color combi of full body red =.= lol.

and the lake of dreams show at 9.30pm (:

we(i) were(was) determined to do some work before sleeping.

dragged him to do his work too by offering him the only table in the room while i read my readings at the bedside.

ccs couldn't concentrate and insisted on coming out to see if coffee beans is still open late at night. apparently not so we ended up sitting at the waterfront enjoying the night view. lol.

and we bought cup noodles back. he dozed off after watching re-runs of powerpuff girls on cartoon network. lol~ somehow i couldn't sleep at all (which i suspect is because of the coffee i drank). 3-4am was spent tossing and turning on the "kids bed". 4-5am was spent trying to sleep on the sofa bed and playing my itouch which i thought would make me feel tired or something. got irritated that i couldn't sleep that i woke ccs up to company me =X he just grunted, ying4 chou2 me a bit and continued snoring soon after. lol. don't know when i finally dozed off...

the 'next' morning i dragged ccs up and we checked out way before 10am. we were first in line at one of the queues at uss =X

it's nice to go uss at 10am in the morning 'cause there's absolutely no queues at any of the rides. i.e. you can ride ANY ride ALONE. lol. which is what ccs did unintentionally. LOL.

his first ride was the revenge of the mummy ride. ALONE. =X i'm sure he enjoyed the ride thoroughly haha!

and then the galatica human ride. that's ccs somewhere on that. i went to put our stuff in one of those $10/day lockers. i think it's more value-for-money to rent one of those instead of carrying stuff around and finding lockers nearby when u want to sit some rides.

ccs claimed that the revenge of the mummy ride was suitable for me. believed him, took the ride and got a shock of my life. ): dislikes.

then we went to have our brunch. $10.50 for a plate of chicken rice with pudding dessert in a food court. monopoly pricing without a fairness equilibrium can.

went the 'far far away' section after that.

went for the shrek 4-D adventure show together. this is the prelude. cutes! (:

with our 4-D glasses. lol. there's quite a bit of mild splashing of water. but i think it's a 'trick' overused. like the story line though (:

went for my favourite ride - the carousel. :DD lol. here's us while waiting for the ride.

short :P

((: we both are very oversized here lol~

my ride

his ride

next stop lights, camera, action show! nice. the effects are really good and for best view go for the front row. ((: we were allocated the front row initially but 'cause we didn't want to get wet, we opted for the second row instead. lol.

and to the waterworld show. it's nice and they coordinated really well. but not exactly my type though especially when i couldn't understand half of what they were talking about. lol. for best view go for the blue/green zone but be prepared to get wet by the performers before/during the performance. we sticked to the brown (dry) zone though.

ccs's on the enchanted airways ride while me happily snapping photos.

took picture with some of the madagascar characters.. the penguins (:

and the fat hippo

and the lion. lol~ ccs went off for classes after that. accompanied him vivo stayed there and waited for him to come back so we can go in back together. lol. got changed in the meantime.

and we're back in again :D

went to 'the lost world' section

ccs took the canopy ride. that's him with a cute little girl. lol. he was looking at her (after her) for the whole ride. she's like sulking and apparently didn't scream at all. lol. unlike me who screamed the whole way through when i took the ride with ccs (who told me that i can sit the ride) and almost passed out at a point. so much for enjoying a bird's-eye view. ):

and he took the rapids adventure ride.

and got completely wet. LOL. he's the only one without a poncho in his group somemore.

*pouts. inside the pantages hollywood theater while waiting for the rock-n-roll musical to start. (me: 'cause ccs overestimated my abilities to take rides and i got conned onto 2 rides. ccs: 'cause i conned him into taking the rapids ride and enjoyed seeing him getting drenched)

ccs the clown.

me the brave firefighter HAHA

((: utterly shagged but enjoyed ourselves (in different ways) haha.

happy 3rd year anniversary to us 24.03.11 <3 i think we're quite lucky 'cause it didn't rain at all for the 2 days we were there. but yet unlucky at the same time 'cause we both got a headache and felt feverish from braving the scorching sun while at uss. lol.

it's good to have you all these while. (:

2011-03-10T00:54:00.001+08:00

midterm today is mega cui. at least half of the marks gone already hais ): emo nemo... really don't understand why i just can't do it! calculate also will calculate wrong until dang li2 pu3. piangs. each time punch in numbers into calculator will come out different answer one =.= honestly whatever i get i'm not going to complain because i know i rightly deserve to be punished for not putting in adequate effort.

dad, well... he was sleeping when i visited him; only conscious occasionally. fed him water, flipped his pillow etc. just feel down to see him lying there unable to move at all. it's something i'm all too clear about. reminds me of sens capability approach. hmms. not sure if the operation is successful or not. only time will tell. he got a horrid bed partner though. kept complaining about the nurses/the doctors/the hospital and was very rude especially to one of the nurses. ): hais. pity them. no wonder nursing is such an unpopular occupation. i always wonder why but now i have a clearer idea.. people really do treat them like personal maids. ):

anyway my passport is expiring soon. for sentiments sake thought i should take pictures of it before i officially return it. as you can see it's not much. lol. and at least half of it is to malaysia..

i really don't like the 5 year limit. it's way too short! plus i'm not a frequent traveller. imagine if i didn't travel for 5 years. i'll get a blank passport and return the passport in it's exact condition 5 years later =.=

mom bought a new bottle (again) since i broke my last one. i was quite amazed that for such a huge water bottle it can only hold 500ml which is exactly the same amount as my current bottle. lol. not very sure how to put the bottle into my bag since it exceeds the height limit but just have to do it. mom will kill if she finds out i didn't use the bottle she bought >.<

okayy emo time over. tomorrow i'll be an effective worker! (self-denial hahaha)

2011-03-05T02:02:00.002+08:00

had 2 midterms today. brain going to burst already >.< it'll be a miracle if i actually did decent since i barely had any consistent studying. hais. next one's on wednesday and i have exactly 4 days to prepare something which i never touched much throughout the sem so far. that's excluding the other assignments/homework i need to do. and i'm still awake at this unearthly hour for some very ridiculous reason which i myself can't comprehend either. may god bless me.

2011-03-01T18:32:00.000+08:00

Still an apple..

Words I don't know how to put across without sounding like a potentially crazy person.. Though it appears that I'm halfway there already. Not everything can be so rationally analysed like how you think. U told me to take my time but nobody is giving me time. The frustration just turns to tears everytime and the only solution seems to be to run away because no matter how I put it, you just don't understand. Tell me, how long more can I stubbornly cling on before the whole apple falls apart?

I really hate it.. It's so emotionally disruptive that I barely did anything these few weeks.. Someone please knock me up..

2011-02-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

a warrior bear mom got for dad from build-a-bear workshop recently.

it's those times when i feel that i need a warrior bear inside me too. a lot has been happening and i hope we can all find our warrior inside us. to have courage, perserverance and most importantly, trust.

it'll do a lot better if i trust you than my own imagination.

2011-02-24T09:40:00.001+08:00

~~allg.do;aot lsk~~

*edited 26.02.11* despite that i'm left alone in school for the whole day and was extremely upset about it because ccs decided to play pool instead of coming school to study with me, we still had a good time in the evening chilling out at casa roma (my current favorite steak place) and then at tea party afterward. it's a good break from studying (for me) but is excessive slacking (for him). lol. by the way, although casa roma isn't famous for steak or something, i just heart their no-fats round shaped steak with red wine sauce. naise! i'm easily pacified with (expensive) good food muhahahaha.

and amanda brought nice food tadah! ((: it's really nice to be thought of.. (: it taste almost identical to the one bbie bought from taiwan. <3 absolutely much! actually there were 2 packets but i opened 1 to share with fal at wcrc and openly eat in front of the wcrc people. humphs. lol.

2011-02-20T09:29:00.001+08:00

appreciate the 'you's in my life. especially ccs. thank you for opening my eyes to the values of friendship and showing me how they mean to you. i'll learn and grow; to have good faith (:

xf yd. ,afw c-m n.apbcbi ekrpat! rp ay n.aoyw YPFCBI yrvvv nrn~

2011-02-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

mom's birthday today (: celebrated her bday like the usual lol. bought dad 2 new shirts for his bday this year. for mom, we bought movie tickets for 2 for the movie great world. lol. mom has been complaining (since don't know when) that dad never brings her to movie ever since they got married or something. plus, i think she should relax and chill a little. she studying super hard everydayyy. scary. the movie starts at 9.50pm and they left house like 3 minutes before =.= though nex is super near it's not next door tsk. lol. typical of them.

cake and tea! (: we always have a pot of tea ready whenever we eat bday cakes. lol.

mom and her delicious cake. it's one of the "approved" cakes in my family. quite rare for a cake to be approved given my mom's fussiness. this cake has the least cream i've seen so far. the only overly sweet part is it's top layer. which can be washed down by the tea. lol. kudos to darling who picked the cake (:

mom and darling (:

hmmms. not a full family. ling didn't come back for mom's bday.. but she'll confirm come over for her share of the cake tomorrow. LOL.

cool-as-a-cucumber dad. i left the camera on timer to take candid shots. unfortunately i didn't aim properly and it cut me away ):

dad and darling barely moved as usual. mom... well. she's being herself. lol.

<3 my cute and quiet family.

went swimming today. thankfully i didn't doze off in the pool this time around. :X ccs didn't join me today; he went running instead. we met up for lunch again after we're both done though. wanted to swim 2 sets of 8 but it got so hot that i got headache at the start of my 2nd set. ): swam just 6 laps for my 2nd set and left le. upcoming 9-ball, 10-ball, 8-ball competitions respectively on sat, sun and mon's giving me a headache. there goes my precious weekend sigh. i need another swim soon.

2011-02-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

An apple that's already worm infested. I don't know how they got there or when they intrude. But when they're there, they multiple uncontrollably and made the apple their permanent home, digging deeper and deeper into it's core.

Discard the apple or wait till the worms completely destroy it?

心。好烦。人。孤独。

2011-02-16T00:57:00.003+08:00

budget: all my money inside my piggy bank. which is not a lot actually HAHA. grand sum of $8.50 :X

valentine's day 2011 (:

there's a bukit chermin in singapore by the way... lol. it's cheesy but who cares :P

the card and the file; my vday present for him this year. lol.

Total budget: $7 :X

i know it's like the cheapo-est vday present but the least it's practical rights... the file is meant for him to store all the cards i gave him (which i think is quite a number since i write cards for almost all random occasions). the card, well, it's meant to be inside that file. haha. anyway i think over time it's a bit headache to think of presents to buy. lol.

we didn't celebrate valentine's day as a couple but instead celebrated with some of our close friends. some asked why not celebrate as a couple since it's a day meant to go all out and be couple-ish. well... let's just say we enjoy our friends' company much more than each other's company haha! kidding. aiya but anyway 2 people not fun larhh. lol. had an early dinner with jr, and a drink with hr, and then we headed down to meet the others. it was really fun hanging out as a group at minds' playing random games. lol. ended the night with our 'favourite' sport. could have hang out longer if not for that we all need to go school/work the following day ): very lazy to post photos of our outing since they're on fb anyway. lol.

it'll be soon before we'll be celebrating our 3rd year together ((: the talk we had today about if we broke up made my heart cold. ): it's really difficult to imagine a life without you anymore. nobody to exercise my cheeks haha! take a step at a time and hopefully we'll still be together for next valentine's (: cheers.

2011-02-15T01:34:00.000+08:00

happy valentine's day! (: oh actually post happy valentine's day already HAHA.

celebrated with some close friends. <3 photos all on fb.. maybe i'll upload more on this space another time.

night world! <3

2011-02-13T20:12:00.003+08:00

brother put our group photo as his fb display pic. aww.. so sweet! (: except that he could have chosen the other picture which doesn't show my triple chins and evil grin dangs. but it's okayy.. u can just forget that picture of me thanks.

went dan2's house bai nian/cny gathering yesterday! (: happy happy. it has been AGES since i last saw any of them. it was a good meetup with loads of laughter, food, blackjack and mahjongssss :D ok though i didn't play black jack i enjoyed watching them play. haha. the photos i took were when we were preparing to leave already so everyone is just stoning and watching tv already. lol.

yx was still jokingly say that he need to eat $7 worth of food to make up for his loss in blackjack HAHA.

ccs very serious in breaking my high score. lol.

it's only when i'm close to losing something that i realize i didn't grab and hold on to it hard enough. if i didn't get it, i have nobody else to blame but myself for not even trying in the first place. hopefully repentance helps now.

2011-02-03T18:32:00.000+08:00

ccs's 24th birthday celebration! aka cny eve (:

completely handmade angbao (with no money inside) haha!

my "presents" for him (:

coin box he eyed on before with $24 bucks inside =X he can save money and buy everything in the previous photo himself :D heex

ccs with his birthday present (:

river hongbao 2011 (: hmms it has somehow lost its 'traditional' flavor and opted for the themepark-like settings. i guess it's a bid to woo younger patrons? i still prefer the old river hongbao where the amusement was watching chinese painters do their magic in awe.

the apparent lack of crowd... and the very modern-looking "dragon"...

ccs with his not-very-him zodiac

me with my very-me zodiac

rabbit and carrot! haha

the cook does his magic while the crowd looks on... smells quite delicious (:

he smiles like me! :D

happy 24th birthday my dearest ccs (: thanks for being part of my life (: i love u.

chu yi

darling and ling ling... on our way to go grandma house to bai nian (:

a cat we saw at my grandma's place area... it was sleeping before being awaken by us trying to take a photo of it. so cute and fat!

the silent man... keeping silent.

mom and grandma (: i realize i didn't have any of grandma's photo.. this candid shot is the first (:

ying kor kor... lol. he request the photos not to be on facebook. so i shall put it on my blog instead! :D

ah yi grandma mom

hmmms happy chinese new year to all! (: have a good year whether it's overseas or in singapore!

anyway i got to know today that my dad has prostate cancer. really random but it seems like he don't intend to tell any of us (including my mom). it was only till my aunts came to visit that my mom knew. and till my uncle came today that i knew. i asked dad straight and got the answers (though unsatisfying) that i wanted. it's still early stage and he's going for ops coming march or something. hopefully things will be ok soon. in the meantime, cheers and enjoy life (:

2011-02-02T02:16:00.004+08:00

i'm 100% positive brother doesn't read my blog so... i shall post his advance birthday card here :D

the quoted phrase is completely derived from hui ren. i think i should cite it. lol shall amend it later.. did i mention he made a very sweet card for christmas?? it's quite rare that a guy likes making cards and (i would think) therefore would appreciate handmade cards. lol. which is why i made one for him (: hope he'll like it! (:

and i'm quite sure ccs doesn't read my blog either BUT to be on the safe side.. i'll post his another time :D

i'm too excited about ~~my own birthday~~ ccs's birthday that i can't sleep! >.<

2011-01-30T23:13:00.005+08:00

It's a mad rush this weekend. Went jb to celebrate ccs's 24th (pre-)birthday after class on friday. Stayed over till saturday, came back get changed and went training. Night cycling with ccs mickey keith fishy and sam after that till today morning. Well, supposedly night cyling but 'cause it's just raining non-stop we end up just staying out to pool, chill at high cafe and play uno at macs. Slept straight till 3pm after i reached home today. Shags.

packed bag ready for the trip (:

pictures of the room...

zomg. unsightly bag.

the room's quite big despite it being the 2nd smallest room in the hotel.

hmmm this reminds me of mbs hotel strangly lol.

the room's just beside the lift. fabs (:

horrible-looking rabbit(s) lol. after putting our bags down we took off to city square. when we came to the hotel we cabbed over but after that the receptionist told us we could walk over to city square in about 10 minutes. &%$#@*

the really weird route from the hotel to city square.. beyond those pillars is the hotel lol. we basically walked through an under-construction area. lol.

and up the slope towards immigration area...

went there, bought our movie ticket and went to neway. 6.15pm. just in time for the k buffet hour :D

struggling with the remote.. lol. the selection is too many and too messy. took quite some time before we got the hang of it =X

our room (: just nice in front of the buffet table muhahaha... because by then i was already starving, i kept asking ccs what time it was (because the buffet only starts at 7pm) lol. i think he got quite irritated =X buffet's not very nice 'cause a lot things not very fresh.. a very poor substitute to our initial plan of seafood restaurant dinner. lol. sing till 10pm then chiong-ed to cinema for our movie shaolin (which starts at 9.50pm). missed a little of it lol. i got a shock when they started to speak in canto. dangs. luckily there's still english, chinese and malay subtitles. haha!

walking back to the hotel... luckily that area got street lights and quite bright some more. lol. ccs's holding a water bottle which is my supposed weapon in case got robbery or something. =X

the completely empty under construction road and a very shag ccs lol.

up the slope to our hotel *pants*

the hotel beside ours. lol. it's quite scary that they have see-through corridors...

our hotel (:

we decided we should explore the hotel a little (kapo a bit) even though we'll not be using any of their facilities lol.

hais i want to swim ):

gym and ratatouilles lols. internal joke.

likes (:

buffet breakfast in the hotel the next day.. as usual i have my bowl of porridge lol. oh and they have salted egg :D

he continue eating while i snap away.

we didn't eat much of the hotel breakfast 'cause we wanted to save our stomach for bak kut teh lol. unfortunately we both ended up having stomachache/diahorrea ): don't know which food is the cause or whether is because we overate or something...

our hotel in the background. we'll be back to try shang ji which appears to be very popular. :D and we saw 2 bmw 7-series singapore cars parking at the food area. 7-series still gian the petrol and cheap good food tsk.

checked out and went back towards city square for shopping and more food. lol. i did the actual shopping (aka walk in buy walk out) while ccs window-shopped (aka walk in look around slowly pick up item look at it ask me for comments put it down walk away from it pick up another item ............................ and dunno how long later leave the shop empty-handed) =P

the stomachache has taken a toil on us and we decided we should rot our remaining time away eating ice-creams. lol. some coffee ice-cream and milk chocolate ice-cream. nice (: i like the coffee one better though..

a frown + smile. ccs adding a lot frowns on my forehead tsk tsk. home sweet home after that whee!

counting down to ccs's birthday! < 3 days time whee!

2011-01-24T00:25:00.000+08:00

sorry to disappoint, again... it hurts me to see you looking so disappointed..

i do wish for a lot of things; most of it begins with i wish i can be more ___, or i wish i am ___

but i'm not. and will never be; at least not in the near future.

please bear with me...

2011-01-15T16:45:00.000+08:00

feels like school hasn't started at all - i'm still in my holiday mood and going out everyday. no serious work done after 1 week. need to snap back into a routine soon. argh.

be more disciplined! >.<

2011-01-10T01:32:00.000+08:00

can't sleep. 1st day of school tomorrow + morning class. urgh. someone please knock me out.

2011-01-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

look at the number of candles.. lol. mom told dad afterwards that it should be 1 every year next time.

birthday 'boy' wearing one of his new shirt pouring tea. darling and i split cost to buy 2 shirts for him. finally, new shirts. else he'll be wearing the old ones which he has been wearing 10 years back. lol.

spent quite some time lighting up the many candles. lol.

parents (:

hmm... incomplete family photo. took quite some time to even take this picture 'cause dad insist i use this camera stand he bought from the cash converter shop. didn't even know he has a camera stand.. hmms...

another self-timer photo. haha.

birthday 'boy' cutting his cake :D happy birthday dad!

some chocolate aunt bought from her japan trip. taste quite similar to almond gold though the chocolate not as sweet and the almonds are fresher. nice (:

2011-01-04T13:57:00.000+08:00

night safari! (:

busy planning how to maximize our time there lol.

it didn't come out well in the photo but the light decorations were pretty awesome (:

ticket and map

mousedeer

i think it's pelican...

hedgehogs

bats! though it's quite scary when they fly very closely above your head but they're very cute! ((:

civet cat i think...? it looks like a hybrid between a cat and a leopard hmms.

map of the cave lol

the man-made cave which houses all the creatures you can find in a cave. i never want to be stuck in a cave *shudders*

a tent outside the cave..

brother me jr ccs. jr's pouting 'cause in his words "we just missed the world's finest show." lol~

the management trying to inject some tribal feel into the night safari... lol.

uber exhausted after the trip. almost couldn't wake up in time for mahjong at jr's friend's house the following day. lol. it's quite surprising that jr plays mahjong.. doesn't look like he does. hr came along to learn how to play. lol. actually more of like we pester him to come along. jr even gave him an closed book pop quiz on mahjong after close to half an hour of 'learning session' =.= but i guess the part he enjoyed most was building up the tiles and washing them. lol.

2011-01-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

happy new year! (:

spent the last day of 2010 with my beloved girls. watched yogi bear with fishy in the evening. after that bbie came to join us after her steamboat dinner and sam even came to find us moments after touching down. (: went holland v for some 'quiet time' to take in the last moments of 2010 together. it turns out to be not exactly quiet after all - the pubs in the area had their own celebrations. the people there came prepared with party hats party poppers and stuff. nice. after the countdown one of the pub started blasting it's music and people started to dance on the streets. lol. the only time i saw people dancing on the streets was during F1 and chingay. lol. the party didn't get very high for long though. partially 'cause of the music (which seriously sucked) as well as the mix of crowd haha.

darling came back from korea too and she bought tons of korean foodstuff. we had some korean desserts out of a packet for lunch this afternoon which are extremely sweet and sticky. lol. don't know what are they called since the labels are all in korean >.<

she bought a necklace for me

supposedly hand-made candy according to darling. it takes the shape of a flower. cute. (:

absolutely no idea what's written. all the packaging are something like this. except that it taste really good. (: kind of a herbish-honey taste.

2010-12-27T13:13:00.002+08:00

when the cat is away the mouse comes out to play. but the trail of cheese crumbs the mouse leaves eventually gave the mouse away.

argh.

2010-12-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

hong kong trip! (: our hotel (: 1st day: shopping shopping shopping + eat good food!

first meal of the day! some store near our hotel.. portion quite big.. taste not too bad.. (:

then we went shopping at mongkok areas... and carrots bought a huge pink panther :D

taking a dessert break after all the walking @ one of hui lau shan's dessert outlet... i think i prefer honeymoon dessert's dessert... lol.

pretty pretty (: i think the set on the right is called mango zi1 lian4..

alot of people were queueing at this bubble tea shop which is beside the hui lau shan outlet...

so we bought one cup to share! taste a bit like koi...

the cheapest michelin 1-star... super good tim sum. we waited for almost an hour for it...? totally worth the wait. (:

breakfast @ hotel; 2nd day: shopping shopping shopping and more good food!

shopping @ causeway bay area...

this stall has a queue too but the wait wasn't very long though it was lunch time then... food quite good.. but nothing beats the tim sum we had the night before.. in fact we went back to the tim sum store to order takeaway on the 4th night.. lol.

the crowd from a top view... lol.

one of the malls we went to (:

3rd day: Macau

grand lisboa casino...

group picture in front of ruins of st paul :D

then we went up the fort...

i like this :D

while we were waiting for shuttle bus to city of dreams casino...

city of dreams casino...

venetian macau casino...

of course not forgetting lord stow's outlet @ venetian macau's portuguese egg tarts.. swee!

bunny and carrot @ sands casino

i like this (:

4th day: peak + shopping shopping shopping + food! mid-level escalators... seriously high...

on our way to the peak tram

we cut through the zoo

and the biggest park in hongkong

view from the peak!

@ wax museum...

act cute

i like this quote a lot (:

wrong martial art.. lol.

he bravely went for the haunted thingy...

after several attempts at taking a jump shot picture... this is already the best shot le. lol. mega fail.

another supposedly famous store.. we walked super long distance for this... totally not worth it. will never come here again.. argh.

ok maybe i only like the salty 7-up drink amongst all...

another store near our hotel... recommended by the hotel staff... portion very big food ok-ok only... hot tea not nice.. >.< 5th day: free & easy day... shopping shopping shopping + food + expensive dining...

expensive dining @ fei3 cui4 @ airport

drunken chicken

ccs and giraffe neck... lol~

i like my passport cover which i bought in hk (: teehee..

2010-12-16T13:41:00.002+08:00

will be leaving for hong kong in erm. less than 24 hours time haha. actually not very soon but just feel like blogging about it before i leave. it's the 2nd time i'm heading to hk and 1st time to macau. can't wait. (: darling will be off to korean and parents to guangzhou. and argh it's really unfair darling gets sponsored for her korea trip from air tickets to expenditure there. ): she gets like 1k to spend for the whole trip =.= few days back when i asked if she has changed to korea's currency, she told me she haven't 'cause she's waiting for parents to change for her (and thus sponsor her). lol. the only thing they paid for me was insurance 'cause i absolutely refuse to waste good money on it. dang. it's good to be the youngest. oh wells...

anyway i'm not done packing or planning. lol. but i'm sure i'll get them done soon :DDD

(((:

family's full of procrastinators lol.

2010-12-13T22:29:00.002+08:00

need parental consent to go out which is unfortunately it's not like red tape. LOL.

at the rate i'm being lazy, it's quite possible i might starve to death at home even with food around. i think i need delivery service to deliver food from downstairs up. (which happens to be darling as of tomorrow when she starts her term break! teeheehee) lol. it makes me feel fat thinking about it.

2010-12-12T15:09:00.000+08:00

Went USS yesterday with jason and since it's the only outs i brought camera, shall upload some of the photos (:

doesn't this look like maplestory's level 60 mage hat or something?

matching the roundness of the burger! muhaha

i think the hat says... birthday girl. cute (:

love the fireworks (: i think it's the closest we can get to seeing fireworks without having to throng the crowd and queue early. and it's what makes the $5 entrance (more) worthwhile.

staying home to plan for hk trip today. (: hope i can get it done soon. now, if only i can get my hands off playing bakery story and restaurant story...

2010-12-06T17:23:00.000+08:00

it has barely been lemme see.. 5 days back when i was uber happy not being tied to work. 5 days later i'm moaning and groaning about not working. not that i've not been playing... have clocked almost 18 hours outside everyday for the past 5 days though and it has burnt a hole in my pocket. think i spend close to 200 bucks already? lol. maybe it's the routine thingy to be working. maybe it's the can't-stand-being-at-home feeling, or want-to-avoid-doing-household-chores thingy. argh. maybe i'm just bored being home right now. which probably explains why i'm blogging now and decided to do this list which i saw on my friend's blog to kill time. haha.

“100 interesting things about myself”
1. i stole before
2. when i was in primary school i stole sweets from my house's provision shop
3. when i was in secondary school i stole money from my parents and grandparents
4. which explains why i have a lot of foreign dominations with me though i never travel to those countries before
5. but i was never caught
6. i have thought of returning them (the foreign dominations) but it just didn't happen
7. i used to be late almost every single day during secondary school days
8. my class monitoress told me 3/4 of the paper in her class file are my detention slips
9. i remembered they were a different color almost every month
10. i told my teacher once i enjoyed detention 'cause it forces me to stay in school and we were supposed to keep silent and study during detention classes
11. the next moment i know, detention changed to copying lines from the school diary and submitting them to the discipline master after detention class
12. i would then copy those lines in advance and subsequently skip a few lines out of a paragraph 'cause i know they won't check line for line
13. detention class got a little noiser afterwards since other students also copied lines in advance
14. i got irritated with the noise and became more punctual
15. that's of cause not without personal warning for one of the discipline masters about my constant tardiness
16. which i cried over
17. it's an irony i absolutely can't stand others' tardiness now
18. and will lose my temper over it
19. i never studied except when i have detention classes
20. or when i flunk my exams and got enrolled into school-based self-study programme in jc
21. which its mandatory to study after classes in this room until nightfall
22. or when the teachers are too fierce to ignore doing their homework
23. or when i genuinely love the subject
24. like accounts and maths
25. or when someone organizes a group study at mac, library, someone's house, study rooms
26. that's how i pass all my exams before uni i guess
27. started studying proper only in 2nd year 2nd sem in uni
28. kind of regretted not building up my foundation well because i'm suffering the consequences now by needing to work doubly hard
29. but whatever it's over anyway
30. oh i used to say whatever + *roll eyes*
31. i hardly do that now though
32. and i used to laugh hysterically over the word 'hanna'
33. which earned me the nick 'hanna-san'
34. now i just chuckle whenever i think back of my slight insanity
35. got to know that i sigh a lot recently
36. and that it's really annoying, especially amongst older generations
37. who believe that sighing is some bad luck or something
38. so please stop me from sighing if you hear me do that now
39. especially since exams are over
40. i have no reason to be sighing
41. i don't exactly have a sweet tooth
42. but if i have a pack of sweets
43. i can finish all in a day
44. that goes the same for chocolates, chips and pretty much all the junk food you can think of
45. i try my best to stay away from all these during term time
46. because i strongly believe it affects my attention span
47. i also strongly believe that meat (especially chicken) induces sleep
48. so i'm pretty much a vegetarian too during term time
49. except when it's close to exams
50. i'll eat meat everyday
51. because i feel that it'll give me the energy i need to study for the whole day
52. and i won't doze off anyway since i'm too stress trying to finish studying
53. don't ask me where i get these ridiculous ideas from because i have no idea too
54. but a good guess would be: probably from my mom
55. who is in her 5th or 6th year for a 7-year tcm course
56. and is mugging hard downstairs at this moment (muhahahahaha)
57. i enjoy teasing her over her studies
58. because she always have some funny reactions
59. she's a health nut by the way
60. but she got cravings for certain brands of chocolates (like almond gold, ferrero rocher) and biscuits (like waffle biscuit)
61. unlike my dad who eats all sorts of junk including my packet of seaweed &%$#@ which i accidentally left downstairs
62. now i keep my slash of food upstairs because i don't like to overshare
63. yes, i don't like to overshare
64. i recently got a packet of mint-flavored candy canes
65. i absolutely love them and only eat them once a year 'cause they appear to be available only during christmas season
66. i search high and low for them every year because i can't remember where i last bought them
67. ccs told me it's because i'm not the one buying that's why i don't remember
68. i have weird rules about how to eat them (like you're not allowed to bite it 'cause it reduces the flavor of it unless it's a no-choice thing to do, or you accidentally bite it off)
69. which i enforced it only on ccs and myself
70. but i forgot about those rules this year and bit off the curve part of my first candy cane of the year yesterday
71. luckily ccs reminded me
72. he got caught biting it off and he got the evil eye for it
73. i'm very fixated on how friendships should be, especially on the idea that they should stay the same forever
74. but apparently it's not working out for me
75. i reckon i'll lose that idea soon enough, it's only a matter of time
76. i have many soft toys
77. despite how impractical i think they are, i love them all
78. they all have an origin and they represent a past, a friendship, a phase or an event in my life
79. the biggest is call bearbelly
80. because it's a bear with huge stomach
81. the smallest is called jasmine
82. it's a name i called myself when i was in primary school
83. my most recent english name is called esther
84. because i find it funny to combine it together with my surname
85. which sounds like estacy
86. it's the name i'm water baptised with too
87. but i'm not a christian, at least not the church-going, bible-reading kind
88. i can't stand very bright places
89. so when i study i always close the blinds or study where there are no windows
90. maybe that's why i prefer pool over other sports
91. i dislike people who call and hang up thereafter to save on hp bills
92. it makes no sense to me and i rarely call back anyway
93. i'm a detail-oriented person
94. i don't like receiving real flowers because they don't last
95. and i feel like i've killed them for their beauty
96. i used to have 2 rabbits and some goldfishes
97. i got scolded for letting the rabbits eat the carpet grass in my garden
98. the garden was bare because of them and after they died, my mom replanted all the carpet grass
99. i'm more of a cat person than a dog person
100. i took the whole afternoon to type all these because i was multi-tasking the whole while

2010-12-05T09:30:00.000+08:00

Finally went training yesterday.. It felt kind of weird.. But apparently I'm not the only one who hasn't gone training for ages.. Can see the coaches not very happy >.< but can't help it also.. Quite sure the others have valid reasons why they ain't turning up too.. Like exams or attachment/work stuff.. Though I did feel quite guilty about it.. >.< shall see how ba.. Maybe next week will be better since it's the hols already.. Hmms.. And was kind of in a dizzy mode or something.. I was halfway to training when I realize I didn't bring my cue case out.. After training after I left I realize I forgot to bring home my jacket. Then when boarding the bus the driver close the door on me which startled me and I fell. =.= I hope the dizzy mode is not carried over to today. Zz.

Going emily's 21st later.. Seems like 21st's ages ago lol.. When she invited me, the first thought that came to my mind was 'o.o 22nd birthdays also got birthday party de arhhx?' lol. After which I realize she's still 21.. Lol. Think it'll be fun (:

Oh and I ran/jog last night and on thurs morning.. Although I ran/jog only 500m meters and walked the other 500m and did the exercises at the fitness corner. Lol but it's an accomplishment to me given that I didn't exercise the entire sem and never ever consider running as something I would do other than run to catch the bus or run across the road type. Hopefully I can run longer distance after this hols.. Lol.

2010-12-01T22:35:00.001+08:00

finally ended! ((:

and we're celebrating tomorrow over movie skyline. totally not my cup of tea but i guess it's not much of a choice since jr refuse to watch anything rubbish-y and hr refuse to watch anything too serious. lol. and i don't know who else is going :S brother's description to our meetup tomorrow is super funny. he's the one organizing so he texted all of us. he said something like 'meet ... 1150am get tix, have a nice lunch with an awesome chit chat session and then watch the world get destroyed by aliens at 1.30pm.' LOL. very cute brother (: anyway i don't understand how come he and allister kept saying 'awesome'. it's like the pet word for the sem or something. i absolutely can't stand that word! >.< argh.

it's the first holiday (since i started uni) in which i'm not working. the feeling is dang shiok. i remember past few sems i started work straight after exams after taking only 2-3 days break. and had to rush meetups with friends since i only had those 2-3 days and weekends to spare. :S now i got the whole holiday and a hongkong trip to look forward to! whee! :DDD

i haven't exercise a single bit throughout this sem (unless you count exercising arm muscles during pool), not even swimming. ccs gave me a pair of running shoes ages ago which i haven't use yet. :X i think it's time i should start! >.<

really glad this sem's finally over. it's seriously the most torturous sem lorhh.. with macro's constant workload, transport's heavy-loaded projects, geog's readings and international's almost bi-weekly pop quiz, and all the midterms.. plus the competitions and sat trainings.. lol it's really a miracle i survived it. and i look forward to next sem! :D haha random.

2010-11-05T19:03:00.000+08:00

all my favorite old-school biscuits! mom uber nice ((: she went out and buy all of them after i pointed them out in google (since i don't know what are they called!) (((:

i swear this used to be my mom's favorite 'cause she kept buying this then. it gradually became one of my happy food then part 'cause it was the only biscuit found in my house.

i like the flatter version better! i used to buy from the provision shop near my house during my primary school days. <3 the sweet sticky paste inside!

<3 <3 <3 this is my all-time favorite! i ALWAYS buy this at the same provision shop too and i remember i always buy it in 100g. 'cause this biscuit itself is quite heavy, 100g don't turn out to be a lot which is perfect. the smaller version is better (easier to munch) though they taste exactly the same. (: mom insist that she've never seen this before and she kept insisting that i'm referring to the completely brown one that's shaped like a ear when i was describing this biscuit to her (i hate that ear-shaped biscuit fyi). which is the reason why i googled them for her to see.

haha i used to be very irritating 'cause i'll bite the sugar part off and place it back into the tin/bag and leave the biscuit for someone else to eat. so if this can be made without the biscuit it'll be perfect :D it's weird but although all the colored sugar taste the same, i somehow prefer all other colors to the yellow ones. haha.

this is my mom's current favorite and therefore the only biscuit found at home. i hope she'll like any of those that i like so that she'll stock them up at home! :DD

2010-11-04T09:34:00.001+08:00

CEO of J.P Morgan Fantastic reply to a Pretty Girl

A young and pretty lady posted this on a popular forum:

Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?

I'm going to be honest of what I'm going to say here. I'm 25 this year. I'm very pretty, have style and good taste. I wish to marry a guy with $500k annual salary or above. You might say that I'm greedy, but an annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York. My requirement is not high. Is there anyone in this forum who has an income of $500k annual salary? Are you all married?

I wanted to ask:
what should I do to marry rich persons like you? Among those I've dated, the richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper limit. If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on the west of New York CityGarden(?), $250k annual income is not enough.

I'm here humbly to ask a few questions:

1.Where do most rich bachelors hang out? (Please list down the names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)
2.Which age group should I target?
3.Why most wives of the riches is only average-looking? I've met a few girls who doesn't have looks and are not interesting, but they are able to marry rich guys.
4.How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can only be your girlfriend? My target now is to get married)

Ms. Pretty

Awesome reply:

Dear Ms. Pretty,

I have read your post with great interest. Guess there are lots of girls out there who have similar questions like yours.
Please allow me to analyse your situation as a professional investor. My annual income is more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone believes that I'm not wasting time here.

From the standpoint of a business person, it is a bad decision to marry you. The answer is very simple, so let me explain. Put the details aside, what you're trying to do is an exchange of "beauty" and "money": Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square.

However, there's a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my money will not be gone without any good reason. The fact is, my income might increase from year to year, but you can't be prettier year after year. Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciation asset, and you are a depreciation asset. It's not just normal depreciation, but exponential depreciation. If that is your only asset, your value will be much worried 10 years later. By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position, dating with you is also a "trading position". If the trade value dropped we will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term - same goes with the marriage that you wanted. It might be cruel to say this, but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation value will be sold or "leased".

Anyone with over $500k annual income is not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you. I would advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy. And by the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k annual income. This has better chance than finding a rich fool.

Hope this reply helps. If you are interested in "leasing" services, do contact me...

signed,
J.P. Morgan

reposted from the place with all sorts of interesting stuff (fb)

2010-11-04T01:06:00.000+08:00

<3 this random sentence from geog lecture

"too many green blobs on a little red dot" (on golf courses)

2010-10-28T00:41:00.000+08:00

was browsing all the old photos, neoprints and my birthday photo album. a bit emo at how fast time has past, how facial expressions and bonds have changed. but i just randomly realize actually my younger sister and i look really alike! in terms of behavior (e.g. totally un-girl-like), the awkward growing-up phase, the geeky look, the wallflower in the crowd etc. we can completely morph into each other lorhhx. to think i always chide her about it. :X

anyway i went tp again today. probably the last time for this sem since my tuition ended already. it's weird to have the 'home' feeling more for some school than my own. but i guess it's 'cause reality lies in school. lol. how to call school a home when you can't sit like coffeeshop uncle and look like auntie from market all the time right. lol.

you bring out the best and the worst in me. never lost my temper so badly before. hope we don't get worse than this..

2010-10-27T00:39:00.002+08:00

enjoyed myself at the changi hotel stay over the weekend. what can be better with having fun with good friends right. (: the first night was just relax and enjoy type. haha. we spent that spare evening/night loitering around the hotel taking pictures and stock up on foodstock at the nearby convenient store. as i'm the only girl in the group i got a room to myself ((: haha. the 3 poor guys had to share a room. second day was the hectic one. we just chiong all the way. barely ate for the whole day and we each took turns to take about 1-2 hour sleep? too busy already so didn't bother taking photos. lol. third day.. well.. after the presentation we all going to knock out already. during lunch we all went off to find somewhere to sleep. ended up sleeping at the lobby area haha! but it's still uber lack of sleep (partially 'cause i slept almost equally little sleep few nights before) so i dozed off during the dialogue session too haha. left my camera at the concierge so didn't take any photos either. ): all the photos with hr! anyway each group was assigned a buddy who is suppose to take care of us and stuff. our buddy super nice! and no airs too. though he's some high ranking director somewhere. likes (: sadly not all are like that. hmmms.

2010-10-21T19:29:00.000+08:00

Actually if you've never been to Kranji Countryside before, you should go 'cause it's quite a beautiful place. (: definitely a good change from the usual shopping areas which we have replicas of in abundance. bet you didn't know there's a fire flies farm here =X (well at least i didn't haha)

This would have to be the most-known/most popular place i guess? I mean where else can you get fresh goat milk and see goats in singapore right.. oh by the way the owner is freaking rich: there's a lamborghini parked outside the farm. should be the owner's 'cause if is a patron, the goat milk should be delivered straight to his house already.. no need travel all the way here. lol.

goat milk <3 it's kind of expensive though.. $2/bottle of that size...... >.<

oh and we went bottle tree park too. uber dislike that place 'cause all i see is the lives of the prawns/fishes treated as a mere recreation sport for humans. ): i mean can't be you eat all these prawns for survival and catch longkang fishes for some random surviving needs right. and some longkang fishes are being trampled to death, or that if the person catching it accidentally dropped it on the ground and didn't bother scoping it up.. argh. anyway the picture on the left is the swan paddle boats <3 i used to love when i was really young. it was really popular then i think? but apparently not so now haha.

fridayfridayfriday (((:

2010-10-18T23:37:00.002+08:00

VERY NO DESIRE TO WIN TODAY.. )): i think i played decent for the 1st few rounds. it's a race to 7. after the 6th/7th game my mind started to wander off and play became very careless. behind part is just uber cui uber regret until i want to hide in some hole and stay there forever. hais. mega emo.

busy bee this week. how come things keep piling up?! &%$#@ on top of weekly work still need to write some freaking 11 page essay (i'm still on my 1st page!!) by friday. just now went fieldwork for geog proj before comp and tml it's just 7 hours straight. omgg ehh.. no time no time! it's even worse than sunig week. dang.

sorry for the slew of whiny posts! i need an outlet to whine haha. i'll be good after sem ends. (:

2010-10-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

as much as I hope and yearn for, I cannot be selfish, no I can't.

watched this documentary called 'earthlings' for my geog class few days back. Serious shyt manx.. After watching u'll be super conscious of ur lifestyle choices 'cause they present the animal killings for consumption/clothes etc like totally in your face. )): *emo* got some workers at the slaughterhouses even like treated the animals cruelly like jumping on them to kill them, smashing them against the walls, milk them nonstop to get the most out of them, sliting their throats and let the blood drip till they're dead, removing their fur even thou they're not dead yet, the diseases and unnatural pacing etc.. Really sad ): it's not simply that they're killed but more of the process they're killed and the pain they suffer even before death.. )): super depressing but that's the reality.. That's exactly you're eating..

2010-10-09T12:38:00.001+08:00

My original tutor (which is also the lecturer) called in sick. His teaching assistant aka the other tutor has to take over all his classes for e-learning week. black: students; white: the tutor. After a very long and torturous transport econs tutorial in the chat room:

HAHAHAHAHA

2010-10-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

(((: 'cause

1. it's E-learning week! i.e. i get to sleep in and slack around in pjs at home, 'attend' lectures with food in my left hand and pen in my right, attend tutorial virtually and watching shows physically

2. we got into the top 15! (unexpectedly) haha. i can't wait for the semis and (hopefully) finals! $$$

things will get even better (: jia you everyone!

2010-10-04T02:17:00.001+08:00

i miss u 3 monkeys/dragons/rabbits/fishes/penguins! ):

2010-10-02T12:50:00.002+08:00

overdue pictures from F1.

take you taking pictures of thee.

note the lights on MBS! (:

lol everyone stood up and whipped out their cameras; some even rushed down to take the pictures

i like the earplugs! and it's color (:

lol the only time in which workers would do OT and stay back in office voluntarily.

earplugs again! (:

2010-09-24T00:23:00.009+08:00

chiangchersiang!

you're
1) always irritating me! grrr.. you enjoy watching me pissed off and insist you didn't irritate me afterwards
2) always finding ways to bully me! this includes pinching my cheeks. I DON'T LIKE IT OKAYYYY
3) always choosing to spend time with pool rather than with meeeeee! *mega ))))): (like today!)
4) always trying to drag me to go play pool with you when you finally want to spend time with me! ):
5) always having lunch dates with z*ahem*q or jr or anyone else without asking me along! ): i need to eat alone lehh.. sadded ):
6) always preventing me from releasing stress by biting my nails! ):
7) always scolding me T.T for reasons i can't help like not remembering directions and biting my nails
8) always calling me fat when i'm not! *depressing*
9) always associating me with food! ): i'm not a glutton okayy! ):
10) always insisting that you'll be home early but your early not = early lorhhx! i need to attribute my eye bags to you. (like now)
11) likely to pretend not to hear me and find joy hearing me repeating the exact same question for 101 times =.=
12) likely to whine, sulk, pout and needs to be coaxed more than i do. tsk tsk! :P

but i still love you truckloads! ((:

happy 2.5 years! (:

P.S. apart from these, you're also a good mind reader. i like that you can sense and read me instantly, without me saying out much. i like that you're always encouraging me; especially towards studying. i know i'm not exactly cut out for studying but i stayed on and worked hard, harder than i ever did. i wouldn't have come thus far without you (or your sunflower + marbles). i like that you always put your heart into making me happy; be it the necklaces, the wood flower, the street lights, the adrenaline-rushing valentines, the surprise titbits, the refills of stationary for my pencil box. and combining your past into our present and future: the fluffy(s). being understanding as a boyfriend and putting trust in me. i like that you're able to tahan answering the same economics question i always ask and never remembers. i like that you understand my fear and making me feel that i can always turn to you for support. i like that you're always agreeable whenever i point out someone cute. lol. i like that you allow me to scrutinize your forehead :D i like the care you have for me and my family. i like that you're cool with my super casual everyday wear. i like that you love me for who i am and don't expect me to change. i like that you respect me, my privacy and my freedom. i like that you're similar yet opposite of me. i like that we complement each other and balance out each other's weaknesses. i like that you're better than me at almost everything, maybe except doing accounts and typing texts without errors. lol. and of course, i like my new break-jump cue. :DD

P.S.S i don't want to play pool tomorrow.

2010-09-23T01:49:00.001+08:00

sunig's over (finally) though it didn't end on a pretty note. lol. after dinner with teammates we immediately chiong-ed down to jr's house and did our final edits for the competition. the submission deadline was 23:59 and we submitted at 23:58 LOL. we were all freaking out, super scared that we can't make the deadline on time. lol~ the next day jr gave us the 'if-only-we-had-one-more-hour/one-more-day' talk. and as usual, we're thoroughly convinced that even if we have had one more day/one more hour, we'll still edit all the way and submit at the last minute. lolx~ results will be out 2 weeks later (: *cross fingers*

meanwhile 'enjoying' my recess week now.

oh yeahh.. i'm finally going out with ccs! (((: on sunday. <3<3<3 to cow lol. i know it sounds quite pathetic but we haven't gone out since erm. school started. lol. but i suppose since we see each other in school it's still okayy.. but then...... i'm still glad we are going out soon! ((: heex.

ok good night!

2010-09-19T01:19:00.000+08:00

(: on today's playing. i don't think i played my usual standard but at least i'm slowly calming down, less aggressive and better paced. playing under pressure is one of my worst handicap; i remember losing to this person badly who don't know the rules of the game and don't know how to pot. super disappointed with myself then but aiya.. got over it already.. anyway i didn't even see her around this time round. lol. i started off rushed initially, playing rather haphazardly. thankfully my first opponent isn't that good a player so there's still room for some errors phew. slowly i'm beginning to bubble myself with the table and my shot. it's a completely different feeling, being very conscious of every single move and wanting simply to sink that ball in. i like that feeling. (:

i will jia you tomorrow! (:

2010-09-16T02:09:00.001+08:00

if i can survive this week, i can survive the rest of the semester. or maybe not.

hai. these days i'm full of doubt about whether i'm still able to study; my mind can't seem to remember stuff as well as it used to, can't seem to understand as fast as it used to. i'm really wondering what's wrong with me.. i can ask about the same concept 101 times and i still can't internalize it. yes, maybe internalize is the word. i somehow can't accept and understand that concept well enough to internalize and appreciate it. argh ): i know it's quite emo-ish to belittle my own *ahem* capability but perhaps i haven't have the satisfaction of a job well done yet this sem to re-affirm myself.

the other parts of the days have been spent catching up with work amidst competitions and birthday celebrations. this reminds me. i actually forgot my own sister's birthday. but it's not just me. my whole family forgotten about it. can i say that this is expected? lol. for once, pool is not top priority but another competition which i participated with hr jr and ccs is. it's a week-long competition so basically almost all my 'free waking time' (i.e. time not training, not having lectures/tutorials, not teaching tuition) is taken up by it. granted, i have to stay up later (and sleep lesser) to play catching with work. the weird thing is, although i complain so much about being busy and stuff i actually do have time to do 'recreational' things like reading newspaper everyday. (though i always feel guilty 'wasting time' doing such things after that) lol. sometimes i would even prop in front of the tv watching random episodes of taiwan hurricane (and also feel guilty after that). lol. i think it's a super unhealthy mindset lorhh.. lol. hopefully after this week passed, things would get better. (:

2010-09-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

the opportunity cost of playing pool is friends.

2010-08-25T01:56:00.000+08:00

sent amanda off today and few days back met up with some pool peeps for a farewell dinner with timo. it's going to be 6 months later before i see both of them again ))):

and i don't know why am i blogging when i should be sleeping right now. it's no wonder my cough haven't recover after seeing doctor twice and coughing my lungs out for good for the past 2 weeks. dang. good night.

2010-08-20T12:24:00.002+08:00

joined ccs and carrots at snooker zone yesterday after seeing doc. lol. 'cause most of the time i was watching the 2 of them playing. i got tired (of watching) eventually and decided to ask for pointers from the 2 guys near our table after much persuasion from ccs and carrots. i super scared they'll reject me lorhhx )): but luckily they didn't. lol. i suggested sharing table cost but they let me play with them for free heex. so nice right. :D it feels nice to break the ice and get to know more players who often play at the same place 'cause is like.. everytime see same people but never talk to each other before also quite weird right. lol. aiya but actually i never see those 2 guys there before 'cause i don't play there often anyway. haha!

ok this is so random. dang. i just needed an after-lunch break. haha. ok back to work.

2010-08-16T08:59:00.000+08:00

k box-ed last night with ccs for like 4 hours?? ehh! 8 bucks nett each pax ehh. cheap cheap! if not for the fact i'm already panicking with guilt for having fun when i haven't complete my readings (!!!) when we got to the 3rd hour, or that it ain't school term, i think we would probably be cheapo and sing till closing since it's all for 8 bucks. lol. sang quite a few super oldies songs like those of teresa teng. lol. one of ccs's song is call 'ma2 tong3' =.= oh and he like the 'ben4 xiao3 hai2' song. lameeeee. ccs can reach high pitch so if *ahem* anyone wants to sing female songs he can take it one! you name it he sings it :DD

ok bedtime story time~

2010-08-13T10:50:00.000+08:00

finally dragged myself to docs yesterday. got mom to get queue number for me. and as usual, she nagged about me sleeping late blah blah in front of her teacher/the doctor. the doctor also quite cute one.. he sat on his desk, leaning back on the chair while asking me a few questions. a bit like can't be bothered type. the students are complete opposite. they were all scribbling furiously lol. and he asked me to cough a few times for him to hear. i can't exactly force-cough much but after answering a few questions, i started coughing like crazy. then he said something like 'oh must let her talk more then she will automatic cough already'. lol. dorts. then after that the doctor supposedly has to decide what prescription to give me right.. instead, it's the student who is clicking on the computer. the doctor is just looking on and pin-pointing out which medicine should be inside and which shouldn't be. all the while he just sat there and rot while the students all attend to his duties. lol.

oh and i got so bored i went to google the contestants for my school's upcoming bash. okayyyss lorhhxx... lol. maybe that's why the bash itself seems to receive lukewarm response haha :X

2010-08-11T22:52:00.001+08:00

did i mention i'm sick? ): i'm coughing so bad until i feel like i can cough my lungs out anytime soon. )):

and did i mention i've started school? ): it's almost as bad as i thought. only barely few days back to school my readings already stacking up like siao liao. ): but i can't seem to settle down and study also. still fidgeting and trying to find back the studying 'feeling'. lol.

morning lect tomorrow. *yawns* nights.

2010-08-09T22:55:00.002+08:00

if we were friends, you would have told me. all these time.. why didn't you mention a single word at all??? i told u would have said something, at least in passing.. or is it that do you not intend to tell me in the first place??? i hope it's 'cause you were waiting for something concrete before mentioning... but still... i thought we were close.. apparently not.

2010-08-09T12:01:00.001+08:00

^.^ many <3 to fishy!